My baby boy, 4 years on

It's funny to think this time four years ago I was sitting in a hospital bed, starting my induction for my youngest son Connor, after concerns about the level of fluid dropping around him, to help him come into the world.

I don't think you can really understand the phase 'time flies' until you become a parent. The fact that that tiny little 6lb bundle that came shooting into the world 4 years ago is now my great big chunky monster who tries sneaking into my bed every night, twiddling his toes into the backs of my knees.

Connor, you are my crazy little bundle of love. You are the sweetest most loving boy. It took you a little while to accept your sister, as she took your place as the baby. I'll never forget you saying to me you wished she would go back in my tummy. But equally, I'll never forget running into the room hearing her cry to see you standing over her moses basket stroking her hair and singing twinkle twinkle.  I know you love her deeply now, and she is so lucky to have you and Danny as big brothers.

This year is very Blaze and the monster machine themed. We have just finished putting up your banners, balloons and wrapping your pressies. I'm going to be blowing up a 3 ft triceratops when Evelyn goes to bed too! I can not wait to see his face in the morning!

He isn't at nursery tomorrow so took sweets in for his friends and was beaming when he told us they all sang him happy birthday and gave him a birthday card and badge. Tomorrow he has asked to go to the bear factory to make a new bear, and have lunch out. Then home for a birthday buffet tea and a super special visit from the green power ranger! He has absolutely no idea. We wrote a letter to the ranger last week, little did he know we had already planned for him to come over to bring him a hand delivered card and present!  I'm so excited to see his face! Can you imagine being four and a power ranger coming to your house on your birthday!?

I could go on about you forever Connor, just know that Daddy and I are so so proud of you. The hilarious, lovely, totally crazy, sweetheart you are. Who never gives up, even with the struggles you have sometimes. My nutty little boy who loves nothing more than running free, up to your knees in mud and mess. My boy with the most beautiful brown eyes.

You're brilliant Bubba scrump.

All our love, happy birthday dude x