My baby boy, 4 years on

It's funny to think this time four years ago I was sitting in a hospital bed, starting my induction for my youngest son Connor, after concerns about the level of fluid dropping around him, to help him come into the world.

I don't think you can really understand the phase 'time flies' until you become a parent. The fact that that tiny little 6lb bundle that came shooting into the world 4 years ago is now my great big chunky monster who tries sneaking into my bed every night, twiddling his toes into the backs of my knees.

Connor, you are my crazy little bundle of love. You are the sweetest most loving boy. It took you a little while to accept your sister, as she took your place as the baby. I'll never forget you saying to me you wished she would go back in my tummy. But equally, I'll never forget running into the room hearing her cry to see you standing over her moses basket stroking her hair and singing twinkle twinkle.  I know you love her deeply now, and she is so lucky to have you and Danny as big brothers.

This year is very Blaze and the monster machine themed. We have just finished putting up your banners, balloons and wrapping your pressies. I'm going to be blowing up a 3 ft triceratops when Evelyn goes to bed too! I can not wait to see his face in the morning!

He isn't at nursery tomorrow so took sweets in for his friends and was beaming when he told us they all sang him happy birthday and gave him a birthday card and badge. Tomorrow he has asked to go to the bear factory to make a new bear, and have lunch out. Then home for a birthday buffet tea and a super special visit from the green power ranger! He has absolutely no idea. We wrote a letter to the ranger last week, little did he know we had already planned for him to come over to bring him a hand delivered card and present!  I'm so excited to see his face! Can you imagine being four and a power ranger coming to your house on your birthday!?

I could go on about you forever Connor, just know that Daddy and I are so so proud of you. The hilarious, lovely, totally crazy, sweetheart you are. Who never gives up, even with the struggles you have sometimes. My nutty little boy who loves nothing more than running free, up to your knees in mud and mess. My boy with the most beautiful brown eyes.

You're brilliant Bubba scrump.

All our love, happy birthday dude x

What's the word??

As usual it's been a while! I really am going to try to post at least once a month from now on..
So a lot has happened since my last post. My biggest baby turned 5 and had a brilliant birthday party with his little buddies. Normally I don't go for parties, I see them as a massive waste of money but seeing his little face sitting at the head of his party table and knowing he felt like the most important boy ever was worth it all!

He also lost not one but two teeth!!  His bottom two! Tooth fairy and santa in one week!

 Fast forward a few weeks and it's Christmas!  we had a lovely Christmas. Evelyn's first, and our first as a complete little family! This year it was all power rangers, Blaze monster domes, crystal kits and fluffy bunnies!  There really is something magical about all sitting there in our pj's and dressing gowns, watching the kids faces so excited and beaming with the relief they made it onto the good list!  It really is magical.

Fast forward again to the new year and here we are. I don't tend to make resolutions, because I'm crap at them and rarely give them much thought. I do k however, like to think of a word. Sounds a little bonkers but my brilliant friend explains it much better here
http://www.thesaltedtail.com/2015/12/thoughts-on-another-new-year.html?m=1

I don't tend to go the whole hog, just try and get a feeling for what I want this year. I've found it super hard this year. Last year I chose 'grow' because at the time I was still trying for Evelyn after evrything. I wanted my family to grow, and little did I know a few weeks after choosing that word bang (excuse the pun!) I was growing an Evelyn!!

So this year, whilst sitting here considering a few words I just keep falling flat. I think maybe now I have the happy ending, my perfect, happy, healthy three children I feel I need a new goal. Something new to work towards, I mean I never gave up hope and persevered and now I have the daughter and sons of my dreams, so if I can put my mind to it and end up being the luckiest mum in the world what else could I do!?

But that is the question,  what else? I originally started this blog a few years back to give myself a little hobby, something new to get excited about, to think about other than the daily chores and mummy life. If I look back at myself 10 years ago. I was 16/17, just finished school, worked my butt off for my GCSE results, going to college to study law psychology and sociology which I loved! I'd started learning to drive. I had left home. I painted and sold canvases of super hero's, pop art etc, I could play the piano, I had a painted massive Disney mureuls in the play centre I worked at, I worked in SLD schools and I'd started my NVQ3 in childcare. I had goals, achievements, plans the lot. If someone asked me about myself I had plenty to talk about, now...not so much!

Honestly, if you banned me from mentioning my children I would have nothing to say ha! So, I've forced myself to write this post and to really think about my word, and some things I'd like to do this year, some things I want!

Take a little bit (tiny) of time out for myself, to not always be rushing about for everyone else, to not always forget about me!

I've always wanted to write children's stories, I've always got a few little ideas whizzing about, but I never develop them

A thigh gap would be nice.... Hahahahaha

To rekindle a few of my old interests, I've always loved the concept of reflexology, aromatherapy, massage, crystals, angel card reading. Perhaps I'll actually start looking more into these things further than pinning on pintrest!

To be able to dip a wispa bar into a hot cup of tea and enjoy them both....see why I laughed about that thigh gap idea!!

To read!! Although I did manage to read the harry potter cursed child play last year .... Wtf was that about!? 😂

To find and immediately buy these shoes for myself and Evelyn 😂

To enjoy loads more adventures with my family, they grow up so quick. By the time I start thinking about my word next year.... I'll have a 6, 5 and 1 year old running about argh!!


I'll keep thinking on that word, next time I post Connor will be a 4 year old Argh!!  We are hoping to have an extra special guest on his birthday too...eeek!!

Anyhoo thank you for visiting!!  XxxX